Honesty

Don't fuck with me
Do not fuck with me
Especially right now, like for real
Yo
Aye
Aye, 9TAILS, yeah ok, whatever

I'ma try to be sober for a week (for a week)
Tossing turning, I been fucking up the sheets (Fuck it up)
Why continue when the future's looking bleak? (So bleak)
Barely living and my chest is scaring me (Fuck it up)
I could give you the attention that you seek (Yeah)
I could help a thousand people to their feet (Raise up)
I could fucking save a life but never me (Not me)
Don't you try cause there's no way you're saving me (I'm all dead)
I could feel heart palpatations happen when I breathe (Oh no)
I could feel the acid climbing everytime I eat (Yeah)
They say it's a scary life, take this, it'll work (Pills)
It's been half a year and I'm only feeling worse (So bad)
Residential doctors tell me it's anxiety (Yeah)
I could fucking tell you that, now get to helping me (Come on)
I wonder what the feeling's like of breathing normally
Can't identify the happiness when it's so new to me (It's true)

Slow down
I can't even smoke now (No way)
I been on the same damn comedown (Yeah)
Since this time last year, this time last year
This time last-
March now (March now)
Hot or cold, I never go out (Fuck outside)
See my friends like once a week at best
'Cause I'm in my zone now
I'm not myself when it's cold out (I am not myself when it's cold outside)

I been seeing shadow figures
In the corner of my vision
I been thinking 'bout my friends
And all their thoughts and all their feelings
I don't think they really like me (No they don't)
And that thought really frightens me (I know they don't)
I'm being honest
And that doesn't really happen alot

It doesn't happen
Doesn't really happen alot, damn
It doesn't happen alot
It doesn't
It's true